Hello there. I apologize for my lack of writing the past couple of months. I kind of went through the mentality that I thought nobody was reading so I didn't see a point in writing. But I got someone on Twitter to ask what was going on, so I decided to come back at update you on my life.
I'm sure you wondering about how things are going with Reed. Yes, we are still together & yes, we are getting married!!! We have our date, our venue, our honeymoon & everything booked. Now you are wondering about how the proposal went & all the cute stuff. But unfortunately, I can't tell you because it hasn't happened yet.
Weird, right? Technically, we aren't even engaged yet. The problem is that my family lives in Florida & we haven't had the chance to go down together so he can meet them. So he wants to wait to meet them to propose. At least that's what he says. He won't tell me, & honestly I don't want to know. I want it to be total surprise. But I'm becoming super impatient! Especially since we talk so much about it. I guess all I can do is wait.
But everything has been so great with him. I love him so much & I can't wait to spend eternity with him. These last couple months have been really hard though because I am in Rexburg going to school while he is in Utah working. We have managed to see each other almost every weekend. Either him coming up here or me going down. But there has been a couple weeks we had to go without seeing each other & it has been the absolute worst.
But good news is that I just signed a lease for an apartment in Logan for August! I will be leaving Rexburg & moving to Logan in August because Reed will be starting up school again at USU. So that's another exciting thing that's happening in my life. There's so much, I don't even know what else to start with.
So I will leave that up to you if you want to know about other things going on. Leave a comment if you want to know about more details about Reed & I's relationship, school, family, friends, dealing with the whole marriage things, anything! Let me know & I would LOVE to go into more detail about those things.
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Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Best. Month. Ever.
A lot has happened in the past month. When I say a lot, I mean a TREMENDOUS amount of stuff has happened. & I couldn't be happier. I guess I should start off from where I left off.
Reed & I ended up going to Rexburg together for a weekend. It was probably the most fun I have had in a while. We spent the whole weekend with Natasha & his best friend who also goes to BYUI. We went to the park, watched a movie, went long boarding, ate tons of pizza, had a bonfire, & much more that I can't even remember. I was able to learn a lot about him on the 3 hour drive there & back, & obviously spending the weekend with him. I definitely fell for him that weekend. Everything about him was perfect. He's cute, loving, spiritual, kind, giving, & so much more.
The next week, he invited me to his sisters mission call opening. I was kind of freaking out because that meant I was going to meet the rest of his family. But it turned out to be super fun & I had nothing to worry about. Since then I have met his whole immediate family & most of his extended family. They are such awesome people & they treat me as if I'm already part of the family.
We have hung out so many times since then, even though it was hard finding time between both of our jobs. We became official about a month after talking. So yes, I have a boyfriend!
Now here's the crazy part. We are planning on getting married in December! We just know that we are right for each other. We have prayed & asked Heavenly Father so many times if this is the right thing, & every time I get this warm feeling inside that it is right. I know I want to spend eternity with Reed. He has told me so many times that he also wants to be with me forever.
Here's our plan:
August
Reed & I ended up going to Rexburg together for a weekend. It was probably the most fun I have had in a while. We spent the whole weekend with Natasha & his best friend who also goes to BYUI. We went to the park, watched a movie, went long boarding, ate tons of pizza, had a bonfire, & much more that I can't even remember. I was able to learn a lot about him on the 3 hour drive there & back, & obviously spending the weekend with him. I definitely fell for him that weekend. Everything about him was perfect. He's cute, loving, spiritual, kind, giving, & so much more.
The next week, he invited me to his sisters mission call opening. I was kind of freaking out because that meant I was going to meet the rest of his family. But it turned out to be super fun & I had nothing to worry about. Since then I have met his whole immediate family & most of his extended family. They are such awesome people & they treat me as if I'm already part of the family.
We have hung out so many times since then, even though it was hard finding time between both of our jobs. We became official about a month after talking. So yes, I have a boyfriend!
Now here's the crazy part. We are planning on getting married in December! We just know that we are right for each other. We have prayed & asked Heavenly Father so many times if this is the right thing, & every time I get this warm feeling inside that it is right. I know I want to spend eternity with Reed. He has told me so many times that he also wants to be with me forever.
Here's our plan:
August
- Spend a week with him & his family at their cabin
- Go down to Florida for a week so he can meet my family
- Get engaged
- Move to Logan, Utah to be close to him while he attends USU
December
- Get married for time & all eternity
August could not come fast enough. As much as there is to look forward to, I somehow forget that I'm moving back to Rexburg next week to start Spring semester. I'm going to be 3 hours away from him for the next 3 1/2 months. We are going to visit each other at least every other weekend but it's going to be so hard to be away from him day after day. We have talked a lot about it & we know we will be able to find a way to get through it. It is just going to be a challenge we are going to have to overcome as a couple. But I know we can do it.
So yeah, that is my life right now. I can't wait for the future. There is so much in store for us. I will definitely be keeping you all up to date on what is happening.
I would love to answer any questions or write about anything so if you have any questions or suggestions, please comment & I will love to answer or write about it :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
He Could Be The One
Part of me doesn't want to write this post because I don't want to jinx anything, but it really is just too good not to talk about. I mentioned Reed in my last post. He really is the greatest. How did I meet Reed you might ask. Now that is a funny story.
I met Reed while he was on his mission in Florida. I was visiting a family member who lived a couple hours from me & I happened to be there the same night the missionaries went over to have dinner. I found him super attractive & felt super drawn to him but there was obviously nothing I could do about it. We talked normally & learned a bit about each other. This was last January.
About 2 months ago I got a Facebook friend request from this guy that I had no friends in common with. After looking at his pictures, I finally recognized him. It was the missionary I had met more than a year ago while visiting family. I was so amazed he remembered me, enough to somehow find me on Facebook. I accepted & he immediately messaged me & we started talking. He asked for my number & said he would text me.
A month went by & I didn't hear from him. I was a little bit sad & confused on why he would talk to me & ask for my number & then not reach out. One day after getting off of work, I had a text from a random number that said "Hey! How are you?" I asked who it was & he said "Oh yeah sorry, I probably should have mentioned that. Haha it's Reed."
& that's how it started with Reed. I don't even know what else to say other than he is so great. We went on our first date about 2 weeks ago & it was so fun. He did everything perfect. He came to the door to pick me up & met my family. Meeting the family is a big deal now a days so that was definitely different. We went out again last week & I met part of his family. We watched a movie, he held my hand, we cuddled, & gave me a goodnight kiss.
Although we have only been talking for about 2 weeks now, things have been going pretty fast for us. We haven't DTR but I feel like it's coming soon. He has told me so many times how much he likes me. & I definitely like him. A lot.
I'm going back to Rexburg this weekend & there is a big possibility that Reed is going to come with me. It will definitely make or break our relationship. I really hope it works out because I could see myself ending up with this guy.
I met Reed while he was on his mission in Florida. I was visiting a family member who lived a couple hours from me & I happened to be there the same night the missionaries went over to have dinner. I found him super attractive & felt super drawn to him but there was obviously nothing I could do about it. We talked normally & learned a bit about each other. This was last January.
About 2 months ago I got a Facebook friend request from this guy that I had no friends in common with. After looking at his pictures, I finally recognized him. It was the missionary I had met more than a year ago while visiting family. I was so amazed he remembered me, enough to somehow find me on Facebook. I accepted & he immediately messaged me & we started talking. He asked for my number & said he would text me.
A month went by & I didn't hear from him. I was a little bit sad & confused on why he would talk to me & ask for my number & then not reach out. One day after getting off of work, I had a text from a random number that said "Hey! How are you?" I asked who it was & he said "Oh yeah sorry, I probably should have mentioned that. Haha it's Reed."
& that's how it started with Reed. I don't even know what else to say other than he is so great. We went on our first date about 2 weeks ago & it was so fun. He did everything perfect. He came to the door to pick me up & met my family. Meeting the family is a big deal now a days so that was definitely different. We went out again last week & I met part of his family. We watched a movie, he held my hand, we cuddled, & gave me a goodnight kiss.
Although we have only been talking for about 2 weeks now, things have been going pretty fast for us. We haven't DTR but I feel like it's coming soon. He has told me so many times how much he likes me. & I definitely like him. A lot.
I'm going back to Rexburg this weekend & there is a big possibility that Reed is going to come with me. It will definitely make or break our relationship. I really hope it works out because I could see myself ending up with this guy.
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Fortune Cookies are True!
First off, a guy named Reed texted me for the first time (I will introduce Reed in my next post, he's just that important he needs his own post).
Next, I was able to get 5 days off to go to Rexburg! I had missed it so much. Going back was so surreal. It felt like I had never left. It was so nice being reunited with Natasha & all my friends. There has been so much drama between all my friends that I'm actually kind of glad I'm not there this semester. Through it all, I have become really close with Natasha & I can honestly say she is one of my best friends. We basically have the same life. Same name. Same feelings. We are twins.
Most of my friends had actually planned to go out of the town that weekend, so for 2 days it was just Natasha & I. To be honest, Natasha & I have so much more fun when it's just us two. Friday night we ended up hanging out with these 4 guys. 2 of them which I had vaguely met last semester & the other 2 I had never met.
This group that we had was so chill. We just vibed. We were all being ourselves & there was no drama. Natasha has been having a thing with one of the guys for a couple weeks now so they were flirting the whole night & I was just having a good time with the other guys. We were literally all over Rexburg that night. We went from their apartment, to this party, to a park, back to the party, back to the park, drove around, went to another apartment, & then we ended up at Natasha's apartment. We decided to watch a scary movie, because who doesn't love to watch scary movies at 2 a.m.?
2 of the guys said they were really tired so they left. Then it was Natasha, her man, this really attractive guy, & myself. Natasha & her man were on the total opposite side of the couch cuddling. Towards the beginning of the movie, this guy asked if I wanted to share a blanket with him & so I said yes of course. We quickly moved into cuddling position & it was great.
Long story short, we ended up making out that night. He was such a good kisser! It was super fun & I enjoyed myself. I live for spontaneous nights like those. Then we dropped the guys off & I don't think I'll ever here from him ever again because no numbers were exchanged. But I'm cool with that. I proved to myself I can NCMO & not get attached.
I also have to share that Natasha was hanging out with her guy a couple days ago & he told her that he had hung out with the guy I had made out with & he told him that I was a great kisser. So confident boost for me :) Natasha-1 Life - 0
Guess who else texted me that weekend? Kyle! Remember him? I hadn't heard from him since a month ago when we went ice skating on a double date. He asked me to go out with him this weekend but I already had a date planned with Reed. & he texted me again yesterday trying to figure out another time to hang out. Natasha - 2 Life - 0
& you definitely won't believe who texted me 2 days ago. TYLER! You definitely remember him. What you for sure won't believe is what I replied to him.
Probably one of the hardest texts I ever had to send, to be honest, as pathetic as that sounds. But I'm really glad I did. Natasha - 3 Life - 0
So what do you think? Has my week been lucky? If you answered no, the just wait til I post about Reed.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
The Worst Game
For some reason I never did a follow up post to the post about Kyle but here is a quick recap. He did end up texting me that night & asked me out on a double date to go ice skating with him & his friend. Long story short, it was super fun & it was awesome talking to him after so long. We had a really good time & he texted me that night making sure I got home safely & thanked me for the night. But I haven't talked to him since. I kinda of gave up on him since it's been a month now since that night. Now to my actual post. Enjoy!
I've been meaning to write a post for the past 2 weeks but I'm glad I didn't because this post is going to be so much better than the ones I was going to write (I hope). If you follow me on Twitter you probably know for the most part what has been happening, but now you can get all the juicy details. If you don't follow me on Twitter, then what you don't know is that Tyler texted me 2 weeks ago.
Yes, the very infamous Tyler. The last time I had talked to him was thanksgiving. Ever since moving to Utah, I have spent countless minutes (probably hours) thinking about texting him. I had also posted many things on FB about me being in Utah hoping he would see it. I kinda gave up on him reaching out to me about 3 weeks after being here. But I still thought about what things would be like if we got in contact. Would he want to actually hang out this time? Would I just become a girl he would make out with once in a while? Whatever it would be, I didn't care. I just wanted to know. I wanted to see him.
So when he texted me out of nowhere, can you imagine my shock/excitement? He had said
"So you live in Utah now??" Score! My plan worked. It took a lot longer than I expected him to catch on, but better late than never. We texted for the remainder of the day. Talking about why I'm here, school, work, etc. He asked what I was doing that weekend & I said I worked Saturday night & then he asked if I had plans Friday night, which to I replied that I was free that night. So he asked if we could hang out. WELL OF COURSE. Can we talk about how I had been waiting for this for the past 2 months?! After talking for a couple hours, the conversation died. And then the next 2 days seemed to drag on.
Then it was Friday. & I was really nervous. This time was different than the past 2 times for 2 different reasons. 1) The past 2 times were spontaneous. I had no time to think about it. This time I had time to think about what was going to happen. Which leads me to 2) I didn't know what to expect. For the first time, I wasn't sure if all we were going to do is make out. This was planned. He actually asked to hang out.
So Friday went on. & then Friday ended. Without any word from Tyler. To say I was disappointed would be an understatement. I woke up Saturday not sad, but mad. Luckily I had work that day to get my mind off of him. I got off work that night to a text from Tyler.
Now I'm just going to write out the conversations we have had the past 2 weeks, & maybe you can figure out the game he has been playing with me.
Saturday
4:30 p.m. "Shoot, I'm sorry, I totally forgot about last night. You have work tonight?"
9:30 p.m. "Yeah. I'm just now getting off."
10:30 p.m. "Dang well is it too late?"
10:40 p.m. "Nah it's only 10:40."
11:30 p.m. "Well I wok at 11 tomorrow morning so I'm not sure."
11:50 p.m. " Yeah I don't think tonight will work :("
Sunday
10:45 a.m. "I'm sure we can figure out another time :)"
***notice the days & times***
*Tuesday
2:15 A.M. "Yeah we need to hang out soon :)"
10:30 a.m. "I agree! When are you thinking?"
*Thursday
11:00 p.m. "Maybe we could hang out tonight? But it might have to be kinda late..."
11:15 p.m. "I'm actually staying at a friends tonight & she lives kinda far from you."
11:50 p.m. "Oh cool. Let's try from tomorrow then :)"
Friday
12:40 p.m. "Hoping today actually works :)"
*Monday
12:45 a.m. "Hey :)"
I will stop there. At this point, I am so over this game he is playing. Not only does he wait 2 days to reply, he doesn't text me til 11 p.m. or later. So now I obviously know what he wants. At least one of my questions has been answered. He doesn't actually want to hang out with me. You want to know the craziest thing? I STILL wanted to see him. Even thought I knew that he was being a huge jerk to me by this little game he has been playing, I wanted to see him. & not so much that I wanted to, I NEEDED to. I needed to get him out of my system. But the only way to do that was to see him.
So for some reason I woke up Monday at around 3 a.m. to see the text from Tyler. I figured he had gone to bed by then so I texted him back at 3:30 saying "Hey! How have we not hung out yet?"
To my surprise, he texted back within 10 minutes.
"Well I was hoping we could tonight."
"Wish I would have seen your text earlier."
" So come now ;)"
I had to take the opportunity. I was so tired of this game, I was willing to sneak out of my house at 4 a.m. to see him. So that's what I did.
I had been talking to my friends about the whole situation & they thought it would be a bad idea if I saw him again. They said that I would just fall for him all over again. Boy, could they have been more wrong. I left his house feeling better than I have in a long time. Not only because we had another great make out session, but because I finally felt like I was done with him. I didn't leave feeling like I wanted to see him. A big part of this was because I finally know what kind of guy he is. It had always been a mystery. I had always thought that maybe we only would make out because we only had a limited amount of time til one of us left back to Idaho/Utah. But now that we both live in the same state & yet nothing has changed, it's not a mystery anymore.
Will I see him again? I honestly don't know. I for sure won't be the one texting him. So it's really all up to him. Will I take his offer to make out again at 4 a.m.? Probably not. Maybe at 11 p.m. I will. Now that I don't have feelings for him anymore, I feel like I could make out with him strictly as a NCMO just for the fun of it. Because after all, the one thing that hasn't changed between us is our amazing sexual chemistry.
So yeah, I think I finally closed the Tyler chapter in my life. He may make an appearance in the next couple chapters, he may not. Only time will tell.
I've been meaning to write a post for the past 2 weeks but I'm glad I didn't because this post is going to be so much better than the ones I was going to write (I hope). If you follow me on Twitter you probably know for the most part what has been happening, but now you can get all the juicy details. If you don't follow me on Twitter, then what you don't know is that Tyler texted me 2 weeks ago.
Yes, the very infamous Tyler. The last time I had talked to him was thanksgiving. Ever since moving to Utah, I have spent countless minutes (probably hours) thinking about texting him. I had also posted many things on FB about me being in Utah hoping he would see it. I kinda gave up on him reaching out to me about 3 weeks after being here. But I still thought about what things would be like if we got in contact. Would he want to actually hang out this time? Would I just become a girl he would make out with once in a while? Whatever it would be, I didn't care. I just wanted to know. I wanted to see him.
So when he texted me out of nowhere, can you imagine my shock/excitement? He had said
"So you live in Utah now??" Score! My plan worked. It took a lot longer than I expected him to catch on, but better late than never. We texted for the remainder of the day. Talking about why I'm here, school, work, etc. He asked what I was doing that weekend & I said I worked Saturday night & then he asked if I had plans Friday night, which to I replied that I was free that night. So he asked if we could hang out. WELL OF COURSE. Can we talk about how I had been waiting for this for the past 2 months?! After talking for a couple hours, the conversation died. And then the next 2 days seemed to drag on.
Then it was Friday. & I was really nervous. This time was different than the past 2 times for 2 different reasons. 1) The past 2 times were spontaneous. I had no time to think about it. This time I had time to think about what was going to happen. Which leads me to 2) I didn't know what to expect. For the first time, I wasn't sure if all we were going to do is make out. This was planned. He actually asked to hang out.
So Friday went on. & then Friday ended. Without any word from Tyler. To say I was disappointed would be an understatement. I woke up Saturday not sad, but mad. Luckily I had work that day to get my mind off of him. I got off work that night to a text from Tyler.
Now I'm just going to write out the conversations we have had the past 2 weeks, & maybe you can figure out the game he has been playing with me.
Saturday
4:30 p.m. "Shoot, I'm sorry, I totally forgot about last night. You have work tonight?"
9:30 p.m. "Yeah. I'm just now getting off."
10:30 p.m. "Dang well is it too late?"
10:40 p.m. "Nah it's only 10:40."
11:30 p.m. "Well I wok at 11 tomorrow morning so I'm not sure."
11:50 p.m. " Yeah I don't think tonight will work :("
Sunday
10:45 a.m. "I'm sure we can figure out another time :)"
***notice the days & times***
*Tuesday
2:15 A.M. "Yeah we need to hang out soon :)"
10:30 a.m. "I agree! When are you thinking?"
*Thursday
11:00 p.m. "Maybe we could hang out tonight? But it might have to be kinda late..."
11:15 p.m. "I'm actually staying at a friends tonight & she lives kinda far from you."
11:50 p.m. "Oh cool. Let's try from tomorrow then :)"
Friday
12:40 p.m. "Hoping today actually works :)"
*Monday
12:45 a.m. "Hey :)"
I will stop there. At this point, I am so over this game he is playing. Not only does he wait 2 days to reply, he doesn't text me til 11 p.m. or later. So now I obviously know what he wants. At least one of my questions has been answered. He doesn't actually want to hang out with me. You want to know the craziest thing? I STILL wanted to see him. Even thought I knew that he was being a huge jerk to me by this little game he has been playing, I wanted to see him. & not so much that I wanted to, I NEEDED to. I needed to get him out of my system. But the only way to do that was to see him.
So for some reason I woke up Monday at around 3 a.m. to see the text from Tyler. I figured he had gone to bed by then so I texted him back at 3:30 saying "Hey! How have we not hung out yet?"
To my surprise, he texted back within 10 minutes.
"Well I was hoping we could tonight."
"Wish I would have seen your text earlier."
" So come now ;)"
I had to take the opportunity. I was so tired of this game, I was willing to sneak out of my house at 4 a.m. to see him. So that's what I did.
I had been talking to my friends about the whole situation & they thought it would be a bad idea if I saw him again. They said that I would just fall for him all over again. Boy, could they have been more wrong. I left his house feeling better than I have in a long time. Not only because we had another great make out session, but because I finally felt like I was done with him. I didn't leave feeling like I wanted to see him. A big part of this was because I finally know what kind of guy he is. It had always been a mystery. I had always thought that maybe we only would make out because we only had a limited amount of time til one of us left back to Idaho/Utah. But now that we both live in the same state & yet nothing has changed, it's not a mystery anymore.
Will I see him again? I honestly don't know. I for sure won't be the one texting him. So it's really all up to him. Will I take his offer to make out again at 4 a.m.? Probably not. Maybe at 11 p.m. I will. Now that I don't have feelings for him anymore, I feel like I could make out with him strictly as a NCMO just for the fun of it. Because after all, the one thing that hasn't changed between us is our amazing sexual chemistry.
So yeah, I think I finally closed the Tyler chapter in my life. He may make an appearance in the next couple chapters, he may not. Only time will tell.
Friday, January 24, 2014
That one time my dreams became reality (kinda)
I've only mentioned Kyle once, & that was in my Catch Up post. If I would have started this blog about 4 years ago, all I would ever write about would be Kyle. He was all I ever thought about. I would go out of my way at school to see him. I would get to church just a bit early so I could see him leave his ward. I would go to the football games just to see him. I didn't even like football. I found myself talking to his friends so they could talk to him about me. So you would think that we had a pretty decent friendship? Wrong. We never talked. When I say never, that's exactly what it means. Never had his number. We spoke maybe 2 sentences to each other every 2 months at a stake dance or whenever our mutual friends asked us to hang out. He was that guy I swore I would marry but never had a chance with. He left for his mission my junior year of high school & then I kinda forced myself to forget about him. & it worked. I met other guys & grew up a lot.
Now let's back track to my first Sunday back at home since leaving for BYU-I. I was excited to see everyone in my home ward & be with my family. Park the car & I stay in the car to put my heels on while my mom & sister walk inside. I gather my things & get out of the car & who do I see walk out the church towards me? Kyle.
I had seen on FB that he had gotten back but I did not expect to see him anytime soon. Butterflies is all I can describe on how I felt in that moment. All these emotions I once had for him just hit me in the face. He looked so good. He looked so much more mature. That amazing smile of his was still there. We finally meet & then the cutest thing happens. He puts out his hand for a handshake & as we start to shake hands he says "Ah sorry, I forgot I can give hugs" & then he proceeds to hug me. Literally the sweetest thing. We chatted about how I just got done with my first semester at BYU-I & how he is headed to BYU. & that was about it. It was so crazy seeing him after 2 years. Especially talking to him since we had hardly had a 5 minute conversation prior.
About a week later I get a FB message from him asking if I was going to be at BYU-I this semester. Kyle. Kyle was messaging ME. I told him that I was off-track but that I was staying with family in Utah. Then he proceeds to tell me "No way! I'm up here in Utah. We need to hang out as soon as you get here." Heart dropped. Kyle was asking me to HANG OUT! It probably seems dumb how much I freaked over this but if only you know how in love I was with him in high school.
We talked on FB for like 2 days. Some of the things that he said that made me melt inside go as follows:
"Oh wow. When do you turn 19? It looks like your 20 haha but I have been gone for a while lol"
"I'm surprised that no one asked you to marry you yet."
"You're a good person you know that? I thank you for being my friend lol I was just thinking of how long we have been friends & it's been a while."
That last one kind of caught me off guard. Can you guess why? As I said before, we hardly ever talked prior to his mission. Ever. So the fact that he said that kind of confused me a little because I didn't even think he considered me a friend. But I'll take it.
He messaged me again the day I was leaving for Utah saying "I hear you're coming to Utah today." Again, freaking out. We talked again for a couple days & then he asked for my number. So we texted a bit but then it just kinda died. I texted him yesterday just to start conversation because my mom has been begging me to (she also wants me to marry him ). He asked what I was doing this weekend & then said we should hang out. Of course I said YES since I have no plans. But then that was it. We haven't made any official plans. & it's already Friday night.
It's so weird to me that after all these years being in love with him & never getting him to realize I exist, now that he does it's like I'm not freaking out anymore. He used to say Hi to me in the hall way at school & I would be the happiest girl in the world. Now, he's texting me & I'm like "Oh. That's cool." Like if he never does end up texting me tomorrow, I won't be devastated.
But I still do hope that I get to hang out with him soon. Just to see how it feels to be around him after all this time.
Now let's back track to my first Sunday back at home since leaving for BYU-I. I was excited to see everyone in my home ward & be with my family. Park the car & I stay in the car to put my heels on while my mom & sister walk inside. I gather my things & get out of the car & who do I see walk out the church towards me? Kyle.
I had seen on FB that he had gotten back but I did not expect to see him anytime soon. Butterflies is all I can describe on how I felt in that moment. All these emotions I once had for him just hit me in the face. He looked so good. He looked so much more mature. That amazing smile of his was still there. We finally meet & then the cutest thing happens. He puts out his hand for a handshake & as we start to shake hands he says "Ah sorry, I forgot I can give hugs" & then he proceeds to hug me. Literally the sweetest thing. We chatted about how I just got done with my first semester at BYU-I & how he is headed to BYU. & that was about it. It was so crazy seeing him after 2 years. Especially talking to him since we had hardly had a 5 minute conversation prior.
About a week later I get a FB message from him asking if I was going to be at BYU-I this semester. Kyle. Kyle was messaging ME. I told him that I was off-track but that I was staying with family in Utah. Then he proceeds to tell me "No way! I'm up here in Utah. We need to hang out as soon as you get here." Heart dropped. Kyle was asking me to HANG OUT! It probably seems dumb how much I freaked over this but if only you know how in love I was with him in high school.
We talked on FB for like 2 days. Some of the things that he said that made me melt inside go as follows:
"Oh wow. When do you turn 19? It looks like your 20 haha but I have been gone for a while lol"
"I'm surprised that no one asked you to marry you yet."
"You're a good person you know that? I thank you for being my friend lol I was just thinking of how long we have been friends & it's been a while."
That last one kind of caught me off guard. Can you guess why? As I said before, we hardly ever talked prior to his mission. Ever. So the fact that he said that kind of confused me a little because I didn't even think he considered me a friend. But I'll take it.
He messaged me again the day I was leaving for Utah saying "I hear you're coming to Utah today." Again, freaking out. We talked again for a couple days & then he asked for my number. So we texted a bit but then it just kinda died. I texted him yesterday just to start conversation because my mom has been begging me to (she also wants me to marry him ). He asked what I was doing this weekend & then said we should hang out. Of course I said YES since I have no plans. But then that was it. We haven't made any official plans. & it's already Friday night.
It's so weird to me that after all these years being in love with him & never getting him to realize I exist, now that he does it's like I'm not freaking out anymore. He used to say Hi to me in the hall way at school & I would be the happiest girl in the world. Now, he's texting me & I'm like "Oh. That's cool." Like if he never does end up texting me tomorrow, I won't be devastated.
But I still do hope that I get to hang out with him soon. Just to see how it feels to be around him after all this time.
Monday, January 20, 2014
In-N-Out for the win
I was fortunate enough to have Natasha, Michelle & one of our new friends Amy, who are on-track right now at BYU-I, come visit me this weekend. It was much needed considering I've only been surrounded by my family this whole week. I was in desperate need of some friend time. Turned out to be a lot more adventurous then planned.
So they got here Friday afternoon-ish & I met up with them at a shopping area & we caught up on life. It had felt as if it had been forever since I had seen them but really it had hardly been a month. We were all staying the night at Michelle's cousins house & I thought once we got there we were done for the night. So we get there & set our beds up & get all our stuff out of the car. Then Amy (who is kinda on the wild girl side) is like "Sooo what are we doing tonight?". Seeing as there seems to be nothing happening I say that we should go to Provo because that's the only place we would really be able to find anything to do. So that's exactly what we did.
Half way there we realize we have no where to go once we actually get there. Natasha suggests we go to In-N-Out because that's where all the hot guys hang out. Again, we just went for it. Why not, right? At least try it out. We get there, order some fries, sit down & scope out the 4 tables of hot guys. Out of nowhere this very attractive man comes up to our table & just starts talking to us. He tells us that he is here with 4 of his buddies & then asks us if we want to go back to their apartment to hang out. Ummmmmmmmm can we talk about how these 5 HOT GUYS just invited us 4 girls to hang out? So we obviously told him yes. We hope in my car & follow them to their apartment.
These guys were not only hot, but so fun! We talked a while just getting to know each other. We played Heads Up. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically like charades but instead you put your phone up to your forehead & the people on your team have to act out what the word or phrase says on the phone. We split up into teams & played for literally like an hour straight. Now let me tell you just one of the many funny moments from that one hour we played. So it was my teams turn & the word we had to be acting out was "Tripping". So we start pretending to trip. One of the guys on my team falls on floor (purposely) & at the same time I'm "pretending" to trip, but as I do this Amy decides to put her foot in front of mine leading me to actually trip....right on top of this guy. We all literally laugh for 5 minutes straight. Trust me, I did not complain once. This guy was CUTE & I was laying on top of him. It was just great. Then one the guys puts some music on, turns all the lights off, & takes out his strobe light. Basically had a dance party in the middle of their living room. So fun!
Around 2 a.m. we deicide we should probably be heading back so we get each others number & headed back. Saturday we met up with them & hung out a bit. Then we had the Paint Fight, which for those who have never attended are SO TRUCKING FUN! They went to that too so we got to see them there.
& that was my weekend. My friends left last night & once again I'm left in Utah with no one. Even though the guys we met this weekend live here, I have a feeling I probably won't hang out with them. But on the bright side, I GOT THE JOB!! I start Wednesday & I'm so excited. Wish me luck!
So they got here Friday afternoon-ish & I met up with them at a shopping area & we caught up on life. It had felt as if it had been forever since I had seen them but really it had hardly been a month. We were all staying the night at Michelle's cousins house & I thought once we got there we were done for the night. So we get there & set our beds up & get all our stuff out of the car. Then Amy (who is kinda on the wild girl side) is like "Sooo what are we doing tonight?". Seeing as there seems to be nothing happening I say that we should go to Provo because that's the only place we would really be able to find anything to do. So that's exactly what we did.
Half way there we realize we have no where to go once we actually get there. Natasha suggests we go to In-N-Out because that's where all the hot guys hang out. Again, we just went for it. Why not, right? At least try it out. We get there, order some fries, sit down & scope out the 4 tables of hot guys. Out of nowhere this very attractive man comes up to our table & just starts talking to us. He tells us that he is here with 4 of his buddies & then asks us if we want to go back to their apartment to hang out. Ummmmmmmmm can we talk about how these 5 HOT GUYS just invited us 4 girls to hang out? So we obviously told him yes. We hope in my car & follow them to their apartment.
These guys were not only hot, but so fun! We talked a while just getting to know each other. We played Heads Up. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically like charades but instead you put your phone up to your forehead & the people on your team have to act out what the word or phrase says on the phone. We split up into teams & played for literally like an hour straight. Now let me tell you just one of the many funny moments from that one hour we played. So it was my teams turn & the word we had to be acting out was "Tripping". So we start pretending to trip. One of the guys on my team falls on floor (purposely) & at the same time I'm "pretending" to trip, but as I do this Amy decides to put her foot in front of mine leading me to actually trip....right on top of this guy. We all literally laugh for 5 minutes straight. Trust me, I did not complain once. This guy was CUTE & I was laying on top of him. It was just great. Then one the guys puts some music on, turns all the lights off, & takes out his strobe light. Basically had a dance party in the middle of their living room. So fun!
Around 2 a.m. we deicide we should probably be heading back so we get each others number & headed back. Saturday we met up with them & hung out a bit. Then we had the Paint Fight, which for those who have never attended are SO TRUCKING FUN! They went to that too so we got to see them there.
& that was my weekend. My friends left last night & once again I'm left in Utah with no one. Even though the guys we met this weekend live here, I have a feeling I probably won't hang out with them. But on the bright side, I GOT THE JOB!! I start Wednesday & I'm so excited. Wish me luck!
Friday, January 17, 2014
Why Job Applications are Annoying
Since being here in Utah while I'm on my off track from BYU-I, I've been looking for jobs. Ya know, to save money, meet people, keep myself busy. But can I just say that job applications are probably the most annoying thing ever? I've about filled out about 5 & every time I just want to poke my eyes out. Let's just go over why job applications are the worst.
1. Most places only have online applications now a days. What happened to good ol' fashioned filling out an application in store & then giving it to the manager & chatting a bit so they can get to know you a little bit? It's so frustrating asking for an application & being told "You have to go online & fill it out." How does a store/restaurant know if a person is outgoing or not? Communicable or closed-off? Last time I checked, you can't tell through words on a computer screen. Not to brag, but I'm really good at making a first impression so it would be so much easier for me to get a job if we want back to the old ways.
2. Filling out previous employers information. Do you really think I remember the number of my supervisor I worked for 6 months-2 years ago? Maybe I'm just lazy, but having to search online or going through my phone to find the number is just too much work for me.
3. "Tell us about your education." This part isn't so much annoying as much as it is confusing. I put down that I graduated high school & then it asked about college. But there is no box or button that asks if you are attending. It just asks if you have graduated or not. I'm forced to put that I haven't graduated but that just makes me feel like they think I dropped out or something. It just bothers me.
4. Those 30 minute questionnaires. I understand why these are necessary but they just take FOREVER. I would rather go in & be asked the questions.
The good news: I think I finally found a job! I went in for my 2nd interview today & the manager basically told me I had the job. He is going to call me tomorrow & officially give me my position. Hopefully this will be the start to my many adventures in Utah.
1. Most places only have online applications now a days. What happened to good ol' fashioned filling out an application in store & then giving it to the manager & chatting a bit so they can get to know you a little bit? It's so frustrating asking for an application & being told "You have to go online & fill it out." How does a store/restaurant know if a person is outgoing or not? Communicable or closed-off? Last time I checked, you can't tell through words on a computer screen. Not to brag, but I'm really good at making a first impression so it would be so much easier for me to get a job if we want back to the old ways.
2. Filling out previous employers information. Do you really think I remember the number of my supervisor I worked for 6 months-2 years ago? Maybe I'm just lazy, but having to search online or going through my phone to find the number is just too much work for me.
3. "Tell us about your education." This part isn't so much annoying as much as it is confusing. I put down that I graduated high school & then it asked about college. But there is no box or button that asks if you are attending. It just asks if you have graduated or not. I'm forced to put that I haven't graduated but that just makes me feel like they think I dropped out or something. It just bothers me.
4. Those 30 minute questionnaires. I understand why these are necessary but they just take FOREVER. I would rather go in & be asked the questions.
The good news: I think I finally found a job! I went in for my 2nd interview today & the manager basically told me I had the job. He is going to call me tomorrow & officially give me my position. Hopefully this will be the start to my many adventures in Utah.
Friday, January 10, 2014
New Year, New Home
I'm making one of my resolution to blog at least 2 times a month. This way I don't have to think about what has happened the past month, As for December, it was a pretty sad month. Saying bye to all the friends I made in Rexburg was harder than I expected. Out of all my friends, I'm the only one with Fall/Spring track so they are all together this semester & I'm left out. I'm hoping since I'm moving to Utah this weekend I will find time to drive up to Idaho at least once every other month. They say they will come visit, but we shall see about that.
Up until now I was so excited to move. I couldn't wait to get a job & meet new people. But the more I think about it, the more I get nervous. What happens if I don't meet anybody? Or my job sucks? I just don't want to sit at home all day with nobody to call to hang out. I'm really going to have to get out of my comfort zone in order to meet people.
I really am going to miss Florida. It's 80 degree weather. It's random rain storms. My family. My friends. I was gone for 3 months this past time. Now I won't be back til July. That's 7 months away from everything. I still hasn't hit me.
Up until now I was so excited to move. I couldn't wait to get a job & meet new people. But the more I think about it, the more I get nervous. What happens if I don't meet anybody? Or my job sucks? I just don't want to sit at home all day with nobody to call to hang out. I'm really going to have to get out of my comfort zone in order to meet people.
I really am going to miss Florida. It's 80 degree weather. It's random rain storms. My family. My friends. I was gone for 3 months this past time. Now I won't be back til July. That's 7 months away from everything. I still hasn't hit me.
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