I've only mentioned Kyle once, & that was in my Catch Up post. If I would have started this blog about 4 years ago, all I would ever write about would be Kyle. He was all I ever thought about. I would go out of my way at school to see him. I would get to church just a bit early so I could see him leave his ward. I would go to the football games just to see him. I didn't even like football. I found myself talking to his friends so they could talk to him about me. So you would think that we had a pretty decent friendship? Wrong. We never talked. When I say never, that's exactly what it means. Never had his number. We spoke maybe 2 sentences to each other every 2 months at a stake dance or whenever our mutual friends asked us to hang out. He was that guy I swore I would marry but never had a chance with. He left for his mission my junior year of high school & then I kinda forced myself to forget about him. & it worked. I met other guys & grew up a lot.
Now let's back track to my first Sunday back at home since leaving for BYU-I. I was excited to see everyone in my home ward & be with my family. Park the car & I stay in the car to put my heels on while my mom & sister walk inside. I gather my things & get out of the car & who do I see walk out the church towards me? Kyle.
I had seen on FB that he had gotten back but I did not expect to see him anytime soon. Butterflies is all I can describe on how I felt in that moment. All these emotions I once had for him just hit me in the face. He looked so good. He looked so much more mature. That amazing smile of his was still there. We finally meet & then the cutest thing happens. He puts out his hand for a handshake & as we start to shake hands he says "Ah sorry, I forgot I can give hugs" & then he proceeds to hug me. Literally the sweetest thing. We chatted about how I just got done with my first semester at BYU-I & how he is headed to BYU. & that was about it. It was so crazy seeing him after 2 years. Especially talking to him since we had hardly had a 5 minute conversation prior.
About a week later I get a FB message from him asking if I was going to be at BYU-I this semester. Kyle. Kyle was messaging ME. I told him that I was off-track but that I was staying with family in Utah. Then he proceeds to tell me "No way! I'm up here in Utah. We need to hang out as soon as you get here." Heart dropped. Kyle was asking me to HANG OUT! It probably seems dumb how much I freaked over this but if only you know how in love I was with him in high school.
We talked on FB for like 2 days. Some of the things that he said that made me melt inside go as follows:
"Oh wow. When do you turn 19? It looks like your 20 haha but I have been gone for a while lol"
"I'm surprised that no one asked you to marry you yet."
"You're a good person you know that? I thank you for being my friend lol I was just thinking of how long we have been friends & it's been a while."
That last one kind of caught me off guard. Can you guess why? As I said before, we hardly ever talked prior to his mission. Ever. So the fact that he said that kind of confused me a little because I didn't even think he considered me a friend. But I'll take it.
He messaged me again the day I was leaving for Utah saying "I hear you're coming to Utah today." Again, freaking out. We talked again for a couple days & then he asked for my number. So we texted a bit but then it just kinda died. I texted him yesterday just to start conversation because my mom has been begging me to (she also wants me to marry him ). He asked what I was doing this weekend & then said we should hang out. Of course I said YES since I have no plans. But then that was it. We haven't made any official plans. & it's already Friday night.
It's so weird to me that after all these years being in love with him & never getting him to realize I exist, now that he does it's like I'm not freaking out anymore. He used to say Hi to me in the hall way at school & I would be the happiest girl in the world. Now, he's texting me & I'm like "Oh. That's cool." Like if he never does end up texting me tomorrow, I won't be devastated.
But I still do hope that I get to hang out with him soon. Just to see how it feels to be around him after all this time.
Friday, January 24, 2014
Monday, January 20, 2014
In-N-Out for the win
I was fortunate enough to have Natasha, Michelle & one of our new friends Amy, who are on-track right now at BYU-I, come visit me this weekend. It was much needed considering I've only been surrounded by my family this whole week. I was in desperate need of some friend time. Turned out to be a lot more adventurous then planned.
So they got here Friday afternoon-ish & I met up with them at a shopping area & we caught up on life. It had felt as if it had been forever since I had seen them but really it had hardly been a month. We were all staying the night at Michelle's cousins house & I thought once we got there we were done for the night. So we get there & set our beds up & get all our stuff out of the car. Then Amy (who is kinda on the wild girl side) is like "Sooo what are we doing tonight?". Seeing as there seems to be nothing happening I say that we should go to Provo because that's the only place we would really be able to find anything to do. So that's exactly what we did.
Half way there we realize we have no where to go once we actually get there. Natasha suggests we go to In-N-Out because that's where all the hot guys hang out. Again, we just went for it. Why not, right? At least try it out. We get there, order some fries, sit down & scope out the 4 tables of hot guys. Out of nowhere this very attractive man comes up to our table & just starts talking to us. He tells us that he is here with 4 of his buddies & then asks us if we want to go back to their apartment to hang out. Ummmmmmmmm can we talk about how these 5 HOT GUYS just invited us 4 girls to hang out? So we obviously told him yes. We hope in my car & follow them to their apartment.
These guys were not only hot, but so fun! We talked a while just getting to know each other. We played Heads Up. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically like charades but instead you put your phone up to your forehead & the people on your team have to act out what the word or phrase says on the phone. We split up into teams & played for literally like an hour straight. Now let me tell you just one of the many funny moments from that one hour we played. So it was my teams turn & the word we had to be acting out was "Tripping". So we start pretending to trip. One of the guys on my team falls on floor (purposely) & at the same time I'm "pretending" to trip, but as I do this Amy decides to put her foot in front of mine leading me to actually trip....right on top of this guy. We all literally laugh for 5 minutes straight. Trust me, I did not complain once. This guy was CUTE & I was laying on top of him. It was just great. Then one the guys puts some music on, turns all the lights off, & takes out his strobe light. Basically had a dance party in the middle of their living room. So fun!
Around 2 a.m. we deicide we should probably be heading back so we get each others number & headed back. Saturday we met up with them & hung out a bit. Then we had the Paint Fight, which for those who have never attended are SO TRUCKING FUN! They went to that too so we got to see them there.
& that was my weekend. My friends left last night & once again I'm left in Utah with no one. Even though the guys we met this weekend live here, I have a feeling I probably won't hang out with them. But on the bright side, I GOT THE JOB!! I start Wednesday & I'm so excited. Wish me luck!
So they got here Friday afternoon-ish & I met up with them at a shopping area & we caught up on life. It had felt as if it had been forever since I had seen them but really it had hardly been a month. We were all staying the night at Michelle's cousins house & I thought once we got there we were done for the night. So we get there & set our beds up & get all our stuff out of the car. Then Amy (who is kinda on the wild girl side) is like "Sooo what are we doing tonight?". Seeing as there seems to be nothing happening I say that we should go to Provo because that's the only place we would really be able to find anything to do. So that's exactly what we did.
Half way there we realize we have no where to go once we actually get there. Natasha suggests we go to In-N-Out because that's where all the hot guys hang out. Again, we just went for it. Why not, right? At least try it out. We get there, order some fries, sit down & scope out the 4 tables of hot guys. Out of nowhere this very attractive man comes up to our table & just starts talking to us. He tells us that he is here with 4 of his buddies & then asks us if we want to go back to their apartment to hang out. Ummmmmmmmm can we talk about how these 5 HOT GUYS just invited us 4 girls to hang out? So we obviously told him yes. We hope in my car & follow them to their apartment.
These guys were not only hot, but so fun! We talked a while just getting to know each other. We played Heads Up. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically like charades but instead you put your phone up to your forehead & the people on your team have to act out what the word or phrase says on the phone. We split up into teams & played for literally like an hour straight. Now let me tell you just one of the many funny moments from that one hour we played. So it was my teams turn & the word we had to be acting out was "Tripping". So we start pretending to trip. One of the guys on my team falls on floor (purposely) & at the same time I'm "pretending" to trip, but as I do this Amy decides to put her foot in front of mine leading me to actually trip....right on top of this guy. We all literally laugh for 5 minutes straight. Trust me, I did not complain once. This guy was CUTE & I was laying on top of him. It was just great. Then one the guys puts some music on, turns all the lights off, & takes out his strobe light. Basically had a dance party in the middle of their living room. So fun!
Around 2 a.m. we deicide we should probably be heading back so we get each others number & headed back. Saturday we met up with them & hung out a bit. Then we had the Paint Fight, which for those who have never attended are SO TRUCKING FUN! They went to that too so we got to see them there.
& that was my weekend. My friends left last night & once again I'm left in Utah with no one. Even though the guys we met this weekend live here, I have a feeling I probably won't hang out with them. But on the bright side, I GOT THE JOB!! I start Wednesday & I'm so excited. Wish me luck!
Friday, January 17, 2014
Why Job Applications are Annoying
Since being here in Utah while I'm on my off track from BYU-I, I've been looking for jobs. Ya know, to save money, meet people, keep myself busy. But can I just say that job applications are probably the most annoying thing ever? I've about filled out about 5 & every time I just want to poke my eyes out. Let's just go over why job applications are the worst.
1. Most places only have online applications now a days. What happened to good ol' fashioned filling out an application in store & then giving it to the manager & chatting a bit so they can get to know you a little bit? It's so frustrating asking for an application & being told "You have to go online & fill it out." How does a store/restaurant know if a person is outgoing or not? Communicable or closed-off? Last time I checked, you can't tell through words on a computer screen. Not to brag, but I'm really good at making a first impression so it would be so much easier for me to get a job if we want back to the old ways.
2. Filling out previous employers information. Do you really think I remember the number of my supervisor I worked for 6 months-2 years ago? Maybe I'm just lazy, but having to search online or going through my phone to find the number is just too much work for me.
3. "Tell us about your education." This part isn't so much annoying as much as it is confusing. I put down that I graduated high school & then it asked about college. But there is no box or button that asks if you are attending. It just asks if you have graduated or not. I'm forced to put that I haven't graduated but that just makes me feel like they think I dropped out or something. It just bothers me.
4. Those 30 minute questionnaires. I understand why these are necessary but they just take FOREVER. I would rather go in & be asked the questions.
The good news: I think I finally found a job! I went in for my 2nd interview today & the manager basically told me I had the job. He is going to call me tomorrow & officially give me my position. Hopefully this will be the start to my many adventures in Utah.
1. Most places only have online applications now a days. What happened to good ol' fashioned filling out an application in store & then giving it to the manager & chatting a bit so they can get to know you a little bit? It's so frustrating asking for an application & being told "You have to go online & fill it out." How does a store/restaurant know if a person is outgoing or not? Communicable or closed-off? Last time I checked, you can't tell through words on a computer screen. Not to brag, but I'm really good at making a first impression so it would be so much easier for me to get a job if we want back to the old ways.
2. Filling out previous employers information. Do you really think I remember the number of my supervisor I worked for 6 months-2 years ago? Maybe I'm just lazy, but having to search online or going through my phone to find the number is just too much work for me.
3. "Tell us about your education." This part isn't so much annoying as much as it is confusing. I put down that I graduated high school & then it asked about college. But there is no box or button that asks if you are attending. It just asks if you have graduated or not. I'm forced to put that I haven't graduated but that just makes me feel like they think I dropped out or something. It just bothers me.
4. Those 30 minute questionnaires. I understand why these are necessary but they just take FOREVER. I would rather go in & be asked the questions.
The good news: I think I finally found a job! I went in for my 2nd interview today & the manager basically told me I had the job. He is going to call me tomorrow & officially give me my position. Hopefully this will be the start to my many adventures in Utah.
Friday, January 10, 2014
New Year, New Home
I'm making one of my resolution to blog at least 2 times a month. This way I don't have to think about what has happened the past month, As for December, it was a pretty sad month. Saying bye to all the friends I made in Rexburg was harder than I expected. Out of all my friends, I'm the only one with Fall/Spring track so they are all together this semester & I'm left out. I'm hoping since I'm moving to Utah this weekend I will find time to drive up to Idaho at least once every other month. They say they will come visit, but we shall see about that.
Up until now I was so excited to move. I couldn't wait to get a job & meet new people. But the more I think about it, the more I get nervous. What happens if I don't meet anybody? Or my job sucks? I just don't want to sit at home all day with nobody to call to hang out. I'm really going to have to get out of my comfort zone in order to meet people.
I really am going to miss Florida. It's 80 degree weather. It's random rain storms. My family. My friends. I was gone for 3 months this past time. Now I won't be back til July. That's 7 months away from everything. I still hasn't hit me.
Up until now I was so excited to move. I couldn't wait to get a job & meet new people. But the more I think about it, the more I get nervous. What happens if I don't meet anybody? Or my job sucks? I just don't want to sit at home all day with nobody to call to hang out. I'm really going to have to get out of my comfort zone in order to meet people.
I really am going to miss Florida. It's 80 degree weather. It's random rain storms. My family. My friends. I was gone for 3 months this past time. Now I won't be back til July. That's 7 months away from everything. I still hasn't hit me.
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