My first sad night in the Burg

I probably shouldn't be blogging right now. You know how they say you shouldn't go shopping when your hungry, lonely, angry, etc.? Well yeah, I think that should apply to blogging as well. I don't have much of a reason to be in this mood that I'm in, but I am anyways. I hate when I do this to myself. I put so much hope into something that I know probably won't work out. For the sake of you readers (if I have any), I will try not to pour my emotions into the rest of this post, but I apologize if I do.

I left off telling ya'll that I was having my first date here in good 'ole Rexburg. His name is Travis & It was a....good date. He picked me up at my apartment & we went for ice cream. His plan was that we were going to go learn to ballroom dance but we ended up getting there to late, so we sat & talked for about 3 hours. He just got back from him mission 2 weeks ago, so I feel like he's still in that awkward stage. We talked a lot about his mission, our families, our likes & dislikes, & played would you rather. He walked me back to my apartment, giving me his jacket on the walk back considering I was freezing, & that was it. Like I said, it was nice. I've been texting him since then but he's not a very entertaining texter. I don't think he's put one "haha" or "lol"in any of his texts, so I can't help but think everything he is saying is serious. But he is honestly such a sweet guy & I would totally love to have him as a friend. Sorry Travis, but I have to friend zone you.

Okay, so I have this one roommate, Michelle, who is a super sweet girl but I can't help but be annoyed by the things she is doing. Maybe it might be a tad jealousy, but it's not only me that thinks she is being dumb. She has this "boyfriend" back at home that she says she is in love with & all she does is talk about him. She says that they aren't officially dating, but it's basically that. They skype everyday, she calls him babe, the whole nine yards. We all went to this party Saturday night & ya know, there was a lot of good looking guys there so we were all having fun, grinding on all these guys, having a good time. We later find out that she made out with some guy she danced with. She had previously told us that she thought she started getting feelings for one of her exes that goes here that we have been hanging out with. THEN she gets another guys # from the party, & they've been hanging out since last night & she's told us that they made out yesterday (the first time they ever hung out).

Now don't get me wrong, I probably would make out with a guy the first time we hung out if I was interested like that. My problem is that she literally talks about how much she loves this kid back home so much & then says that she has feelings for her ex. Like seriously? It just really makes me mad. Not to mention that she brought that kid over yesterday was super weird. They totally acted like they were dating. All touchy feely. Whatever, I'm done with that rant.

I gave into the whole Tinder phenomenon & started using it yesterday. I was supposed to have a date with one of the guys I met on there today but I got super sick so I had to cancel, which is really upsetting, but how unattractive is it when I have to blow my nose every 2 minutes? This other guy named Eric came over to my apartment to meet me & he seemed super cool, not to mention really hot. He stayed for maybe 10 minutes, talking to my roommates & I and then he left. He messaged me saying he thought we were awesome & then we planned to watch a movie tomorrow night. This is where my problem comes in. I literally was so happy. This guy literally went out of his way to come meet me, we seemed to both really hit it off, & he wanted to hang out with me tomorrow. Was I excited because we would probably end up kissing? OF COURSE! Why do you think I was so excited?

Michelle gets back an hour later after hanging out with her weird, touchy feely guy for like 4 hours. She starts saying how she doesn't think she likes him because he's really attached already & he had gotten mad at her for leaving so early. We talk a little about that & then I tell her how she missed my Tinder guy coming to meet me & she says that a guy she met on Tinder was coming to meet her too. Considering that was a weird coincidence, I ask her what his name is & she says Eric. Same freaking guy. When she tells him what apt. # she's in, he never replies to her & stopped replying to me.

So yeah, that was my night. I don't even know if tomorrow night will happen now, which I was really looking forward too. Wanna know something even more annoying? Michelle just left to go hang out with weird guy....even though she just got done saying what she said.

Sorry for being so depressing.

Over before it even started

I've been in Rexburg exactly a week today & it feels like I've been here for months. That's definitely not a bad thing though. I love it here. I already have a funny story to tell when I get back home though about this guy I was supposed to go out with, but I think I'm going to hold off on that him.

So this guy, we can call Joe, asked me if I would want to go to the movies with him sometime. Being as this is the first guy to suggest a date, I told him yes. Ya know, being asked out on the first week of classes kind of boosted my confidence a little. That's not bad, right? Anyways, I was getting to my 3:15 pm class yesterday when he texts me "Do you want to hangout for a couple hours before I go to football?" which my response was "I'm totally in class right now. What time is football?" He says 5 & my class ended at 4:45 so I said "Dang, that's unfortunate" & that's the last I heard from him for an hour. This is where things got weird. Here is what happened:

Is that not like...creepy? All my roommates think it's totally weird that he would say that considering 1) He never said he was skipping football to hang out with me & 2) He never asked if I had plans after class. The thing that really kind of bothers me is that the boys I have told don't seem to find it that rude. I just don't get it. I've known this kid for 4 days & he expects me to have a clear my schedule for him?  

So yeah, I texted him back "Oh sorry, I didn't know you were skipping to hang out with me" & he said "Ya I know, it's cool have fun" & I just didn't reply. The really awkward part, I'm going to have to see him every Sunday for the next 13 weeks. Awesome. 

On a better note, I have a date tonight! I'm so nervous I could throw up! Wish me luck. I'll be back soon to let you know how it goes :)

Short & Sweet

I'm totally going to make this short & simple because it's my first week of college & I have tons of homework but I love college. I love BYUI. I love Rexburg. I just love everything about how my life is right now.

I've been here 5 nights & there has not been one night that I have just stayed at my apartment. It is super awesome how my roommates & I have found something to do every single night. I-Night was super exciting & fun. I met my ward on Sunday & they are great. We have such amazing guys who are such sweet hearts, & I must say that some of them are very good looking.

I was going to write about all these exciting things, but I don't think anyone reads this so I won't. But if you do, please comment & I would be more than ECSTATIC to let you guys know!

Long story short, I got asked on 2 dates today!! Not even a week in Rexburg & I have 2 dates. I am literally jumping for joy because that's what I was super worried about. I was so worried I would never get asked out on a date, but here I am. They both seem like nice guys so I'm excited to get to know them.

Is it bad that I really hope one of the dates ends somewhere near a make-out sesh..? Because I haven't kissed/made-out with someone in like a year & I think it's about time that changed.

On my own at BYU-IDAHO

I am finally settled into my apartment. I said goodbye to my mom & best friend who came all the way up here with me to drop me off. I have met all my roommates. So I guess you can say I'm officially a college student.

Our trip up here was pretty intense. My mom & Karoline came up to drop me off. My favorite part of the trip was when we went to temple square 2 nights before coming to Idaho. Karoline was really interested in all the things that we were seeing & talking about. Karoline has been my best friend for 8 years & she has gone to church with me maybe 3 times. I never invited her because she's very critical. For her to believe something, she has to see it with her own eyes. A big part of our church is based on the concept of Faith, which she hasn't developed yet. But the happy part is she actually agreed to talk to the missionaries back at home because she wants to learn more about it. Now I'm not saying she is going to get baptized anytime soon, but it was such an awesome feeling that she actually wants to learn more & likes the way the church works. I'm so happy I was able to share the experience with her because I knew she felt the Spirit while we were there.


Campus. BYU-Idaho is so pretty. I'm so happy to be attending this beautiful school where everyone has the same standards as me & all get along (for the most part). I've always heard the BYUI is a small campus but honestly, if this is a small campus, then I would be screwed at a big campus. I've gone around maybe like 3 times & I' still not quite sure how to get to my classes.  Maybe I can ask cute boys where they are on the first day ;) I absolutely love it here.

Let's talk roommates now. So remember that one post about my roommates? Yeah, well the rooms got rearranged. Natasha & Michelle are still in my apartment but now we have another freshman Caylie, who is my roommate, & we then we have a sophomore & a senior. All in all, I'm so happy with the people that ended up in my apartment. I get along really well with Natasha & Michelle, but it's awkward sometimes when they talk about people back at home & I just sit there cause I have no idea who they are talking about. Caylie is....not as outgoing as we are. She is quiet, but she can have a conversation with you if you start talking to her. She is really nice but is really focused on her studying, which I am too, but let's be honest, having fun & meeting boys is high on my priority list. My older roommates are always in & out so I hardly see them so I don't have much to say about them, but they seem. I'm pretty stoked on how it all turned out.


BOYS BOYS BOYS! I can't fathom how many cute boys go here. I am in love. Most of them are also like the sweetest. I don't think I have yet to hold a door open for myself. I was kinda freaking out the first day because a boy had yet to talk to me & I thought that was supposed to happen immediately. But tonight we had this even called I-Night which is where they had a whole bunch of activities & games set up. It was a lot of fun & a great way to meet people. I got my first phone number!! They had a speed dating area set up so I obviously went & the first guy was super nice. He asked where I lived & then he told me he bakes bread & that he was going to bring me some. I'm really hoping he does because he was super cute. The next boy was also really nice & super cute. We had some things in common & then asked for my number so we could hang out sometime! The crazy thing about him is that he just got back from his mission a week ago! It's crazy that most of these guys are RM. I guess we will see if he ever does text me.

The dance was WILD! All I need to say is that my big toe nail basically got ripped off & is now bleeding & it hurts horribly. But it was totally worth. Cute boys & asked to dance with us so I was a happy camper.

I honestly don't know how I'm writing this right now because I have gotten approx. 10 hours of sleep in the past 2 days & church is at 9 aka I have to get up at 7. I'm super pumped to meet my ward & hoping to meet some cool people. Hoping I will soon have some fun stories to write.