My first sad night in the Burg

I probably shouldn't be blogging right now. You know how they say you shouldn't go shopping when your hungry, lonely, angry, etc.? Well yeah, I think that should apply to blogging as well. I don't have much of a reason to be in this mood that I'm in, but I am anyways. I hate when I do this to myself. I put so much hope into something that I know probably won't work out. For the sake of you readers (if I have any), I will try not to pour my emotions into the rest of this post, but I apologize if I do.

I left off telling ya'll that I was having my first date here in good 'ole Rexburg. His name is Travis & It was a....good date. He picked me up at my apartment & we went for ice cream. His plan was that we were going to go learn to ballroom dance but we ended up getting there to late, so we sat & talked for about 3 hours. He just got back from him mission 2 weeks ago, so I feel like he's still in that awkward stage. We talked a lot about his mission, our families, our likes & dislikes, & played would you rather. He walked me back to my apartment, giving me his jacket on the walk back considering I was freezing, & that was it. Like I said, it was nice. I've been texting him since then but he's not a very entertaining texter. I don't think he's put one "haha" or "lol"in any of his texts, so I can't help but think everything he is saying is serious. But he is honestly such a sweet guy & I would totally love to have him as a friend. Sorry Travis, but I have to friend zone you.

Okay, so I have this one roommate, Michelle, who is a super sweet girl but I can't help but be annoyed by the things she is doing. Maybe it might be a tad jealousy, but it's not only me that thinks she is being dumb. She has this "boyfriend" back at home that she says she is in love with & all she does is talk about him. She says that they aren't officially dating, but it's basically that. They skype everyday, she calls him babe, the whole nine yards. We all went to this party Saturday night & ya know, there was a lot of good looking guys there so we were all having fun, grinding on all these guys, having a good time. We later find out that she made out with some guy she danced with. She had previously told us that she thought she started getting feelings for one of her exes that goes here that we have been hanging out with. THEN she gets another guys # from the party, & they've been hanging out since last night & she's told us that they made out yesterday (the first time they ever hung out).

Now don't get me wrong, I probably would make out with a guy the first time we hung out if I was interested like that. My problem is that she literally talks about how much she loves this kid back home so much & then says that she has feelings for her ex. Like seriously? It just really makes me mad. Not to mention that she brought that kid over yesterday was super weird. They totally acted like they were dating. All touchy feely. Whatever, I'm done with that rant.

I gave into the whole Tinder phenomenon & started using it yesterday. I was supposed to have a date with one of the guys I met on there today but I got super sick so I had to cancel, which is really upsetting, but how unattractive is it when I have to blow my nose every 2 minutes? This other guy named Eric came over to my apartment to meet me & he seemed super cool, not to mention really hot. He stayed for maybe 10 minutes, talking to my roommates & I and then he left. He messaged me saying he thought we were awesome & then we planned to watch a movie tomorrow night. This is where my problem comes in. I literally was so happy. This guy literally went out of his way to come meet me, we seemed to both really hit it off, & he wanted to hang out with me tomorrow. Was I excited because we would probably end up kissing? OF COURSE! Why do you think I was so excited?

Michelle gets back an hour later after hanging out with her weird, touchy feely guy for like 4 hours. She starts saying how she doesn't think she likes him because he's really attached already & he had gotten mad at her for leaving so early. We talk a little about that & then I tell her how she missed my Tinder guy coming to meet me & she says that a guy she met on Tinder was coming to meet her too. Considering that was a weird coincidence, I ask her what his name is & she says Eric. Same freaking guy. When she tells him what apt. # she's in, he never replies to her & stopped replying to me.

So yeah, that was my night. I don't even know if tomorrow night will happen now, which I was really looking forward too. Wanna know something even more annoying? Michelle just left to go hang out with weird guy....even though she just got done saying what she said.

Sorry for being so depressing.